Kindness is love in action

Yesterday was day 2. The dare was to do something kind for your spouse and of course continue on with dare #1. I stayed up until 3 am working on steves English paper for him. Which I know he truly did appreciate. I was going to get up and make him breakfast before he went to work, but I could not get myself out of bed at 430. Oh well isn't it the thought that counts. He of course was too busy to do anything kind, but he admits that and it wasn't just an excuse. So I guess I'll let him off the hook for this one day. Hopefully he'll do better on dare #3. I think so far throughout the first few chapters of the book I have learned a lot about myself...and hopefully good will come out of all this.

Love is Patient

So today was day one of the love dare. Me and Steve have decided to strengthen our marriage we are going to do the 40 day love dare. We bought the book and today was our first day. Our dare of the day was to demonstrate patience and not say anything negative to each other all day. And surprisingly I was successful (well Steve was too) But then again he is the patient one in our marriage so I knew he'd be alright on this one. If I learn nothing else during these next 40 days, today I learned that sometimes it's better to just say nothing. I'm going to try to bite my tongue more often and be a little more patient.

Now hopefully we'll be as successful on day two....

Proud Mommy Moment :)

Everyday my kids amaze me. I am so proud of Mikey and Lexi and how good they are doing in school this year. I always worry when we move because every school has different standards and expectations. Well Friday they both brought home their report cards. Mikey got As and B+ which a B+ here is a 90-94 so technically if he was at any other school that would be considered an A. So he did fantastic as always. Along with his great grades he is also in band, plays soccer and works in the library one morning a week. He's a busy boy :) And Lexi got all O's and G's. Which is outstanding and good in everything. She is reading at the level she needs to read in to be in 2nd grade. And is doing great in everything. I am so proud of her. I'm so lucky to have 2 kids that love school and are so smart...ahhh it's a proud mommy moment :)

oh and Mikey told me I couldn't hang his report card on the fridge, because he doesn't want anyone to know he's a nerd. LMAO!!

Samantha Grace is ONE!

Samantha Grace is ONE!!

I still can't believe Samantha turned one on Friday. It seems like just yesterday she was born. And now she is running around and officially a toddler. Time goes by too fast.

I don't know...

so disappointed...

I'm just so disappointed right now. I feel completely let down by my mother. She promised me over a month ago that she was going to come visit for the long weekend. And she got a plane ticket and everything, so i figured it was safe to tell the kids she was coming. Well she calls me yesterday and says that she's not coming today because she has a dr. appt, but will try to change her ticket to Friday. Well I call her last night and she tells me that she is not coming, she'll try to come next month. wtf?!?! the kids had their hearts set on seeing her. I know i should have never told them she was coming. ugh...i'm just really sad right now. I really wanted to see my mom.

Lock Down...

Today about 3:25 my neighbor comes knocking on my door telling me to hurry up and get to the school, the school had been put on lock down. They founds some sort of substance and didn't know what it was but 12 kids and 2 adults had rashes and burning eyes and coughing from it. And they weren't sure if anyone else was going to be affected by it. So we stood across the street from the school from 325 til 715 when they finally let the kids start to leave. They still have not said what it is that they found in the school and the kids that were effected by it are ok, but it was so scary. The kids were locked in their classrooms and honestly had no clue what was going on. They said they were afraid there might be some bad guy in their school and that breaks my heart that they have to worry about things like this. When I got up to the school there were about 20 fire trucks 14 ambulances and numerous police, the SWAT team and of course the hazmat team. Now we're home and completely exhausted. I so need some sleep...

In search of a new dr...

I've been completely fed up w/ out Dewitt Army Hospital works and am determined today I am going to try to get the ok from tricare to just go out in town. This all started yesterday when I called the Peds clinic to try to get the dr to put in the referrals for Mikey to go to DC childrens hospital for his yearly cleft clinic. Getting referrals for this should not be a hard thing to do, due to the fact that he needs to go due to a birth defect, he has gone every single year and in CO they had absolutely no problem just letting me call in the referrals because his primary care DR does not need to see him. Well they have decided they want to make me bring him in so that we can ask the DR in person for the referrals. So you're telling me my kid needs to miss school just to walk into the drs office and me say we need referrals and them put in in the computer WTF...

Then...today I finally had a dr appt to find out what is wrong with me because I have not slept an entire night since before Sammi was born. Even when she sleeps through the night I'm up til at least 2 then up every hour after that. I'm just exhausted. Well first the Dr acts like i'm there just to get sleeping pills or something. Then just because it is not in my records here she questions the fact that I told her i had a baby in November because she does not see it in my records (Yea i'm making it up...whatever...) THEN...she has the nerve to say to me "well i see records from 2003 in here" and I explain to her that they are from when I was with my exhusband and she says....."WOw...where do you hang out that you get all these military guys to marry you" OMG...this just pissed me off. She was NOT joking either. SO....now i'm on a mission to find a new primary care doctor and not at Dewitt either because I refuse to go back there.

My Ring :(

Yesterday was such a rainy blah day....So I decided to take a nap. When I woke up my ring finger was huge. It was so swollen and I could not get my engagement ring off of my finger. So over the corse of the night I tried anything and everything I possibly could to get my ring off. With no such luck. This morning I woke up and my finger was turning purple...obviously that was not a good sign. So after much convincing from Steve that I needed to go to the ER, I went. And of course they cut my ring off. I'm so sad about that. I know it can be fixed or replaced but that is not the point. Well it turns out I must have gotten bit by a spider...at least they say it looks like a spider bite. Which is what swelled my finger up.

I guess Steve was smart putting off wedding ring shopping for the past 8 months. LOL. Cause now I'm in need of a new engagement ring and wedding ring. which i'm sure he's not going to be thrilled about.

I'm so upset about my ring, but I guess my finger is a bit more important then the ring. At least that's what they told me at the ER.

The little things amaze me...

Everyday my kids do things that amaze me. I sit there and can't believe the things they learn or do on their own and it makes me realize how truly blessed I am to be a mommy.

Sammi is growing up way too fast and lately she has been doing more and more on her own. Exploring everything she possible can. She is learning how to take her clothes off and attempting to put them on....I've seen her try to put sunglasses on her face, a hat on her head and even a sock or shoe on her foot. Of course none of those have been sucessful yet...but hey she's 9 months old what do you expect. lol. Well today we were getting ready for Lexi's pep rally...and Lexi being Lexi left her clothes laying on the floor. A few minutes later I see Sammi trying to put Lexi's shorts on. Ok...so she didn't quite do it...but it amazed me that she knew to put her legs into the shorts. (Yea I know little things amaze me...I don't have that exciting of a life). I want my baby to stay little forever...and she is not going to have that and wants to grow up way too fast. :(

Thursday 13....

I have spent so much time in the past month being miserable about being in Virginia. So I'm going to make this Thursday Thirteen about the Thirteen things I'm going to try to accomplish while we are stuck here....

1. While we are here in the DC area I'm going to attempt to see as many of the historical/tourist attractions as possible. We've already seen a bunch but there are so many left to see.

2. I'm going to go back to school and finish my Psychology degree that I started oh so many years ago.

3. I want to make new friends to make so many good memories about this place with. So even if I dislike where we are, there will be so many good things to look back on.

4. I want to work on my marriage. Don't get me wrong, things are good. But, Things can always be better. And you never know where the army is going to send us or him next, so I want things to be as good as possible before hand.

5. Cherish every minute of my kids lives. They are growing up way too fast. Seems like just yesterday Mikey was a baby and now he's in 5th grade. OMG where has the time gone.

6. I'm going to join a walking club and get back in shape. I still have so much weight to lose from all 3 of my pregnancies and although I know it's not going to be easy I need this weight gone so I will be happy about how I look.

7. I'm going to learn how to drive in this area and take public transportation. I have only ventured out off post by myself 3 times in a month. I can't stand being dependent on my husband to take me where I want to go, but at the same time I am scared to death of these crazy drivers.

8. I'm going to join the PTO and get more involved with what goes on at school. I want to be part of what is going on at school and this is the best way of doing it.

9. I want to join the Enlisted Spouses Club. I love clubs/organizations and I love to join stuff and do things around the post. So I'm really excited about this.

10. I'm going to finish getting everything I have wanted for our house. Over the past year I have gotten so much new furniture but there are still a few pieces that I really want. And this year I want to get the rest so I can be done for a while.

11. I want to learn how to eat healthier. Because I don't seem to know how to do this could be the exact reason I haven't lost as much weight as I want to.

12. Volunteer....I just have to figure out exactly where I want to do this.

13. Have fun!! I will be miserable if I don't figure out how to do this quickly!!!

A really random list of things...

I am... trying my hardest to be happy here in Virginia, no matter how hard that really is.
I think... I need to get out and meet more people.
I want... to go on a cruise.
I have... so much to do before the kids go back to school next Tuesday.
I wish... for a good weekend with the hubby, sans kiddos.
I hate...annoying people.
I miss... all of my friends.
I fear...that we'll be stuck here for way too long.
I feel... overwhelmed lately.
I hear... nothing at all...oh how great the sound of silence is.
I smell...chocolate from the chocolate chip cookie I just ate.
I search... for all the stuff the kids will need for school
I wonder....how things can be so different.
I regret... nothing!
I love... my husband.
I care...about all my friends.
I always... will do whatever I have to, to make sure my kids have the best lives possible.
I am not...as bitchy as some people make me out to be.
I believe... in karma!
I dance... worse then everyone else.
I sing... really bad.
I don't always...listen when I should.
I write... whatever I can think of.
I win... never...i have bad luck.
I lose... my mind all the time.
I never... regret the things I do in life.
I listen...to my friends when they need me.
I can usually be found... taking care of my kids.
I'm scared of... snakes.
I read...not as much as I should.
I forget... as much as I remember.
I just...got off the phone.
I am happy about... certain things in my life.